because no matter what you do, how much you do, it just doesnt seem enough as nothing beats time.

anyway my phone is so freaking screwed up now :( i think the battery is like faulty already because even after i charged it to full batt, it goes low batt and shuts itself off like within hours, WTH. my stupid phone.

trying to plan my NAUGHTY 19TH bday thingy. it seems super early to be planning it now since my bday is like in july? But i need to bk a freaking hotel room hence i need to cfm people's attendance. i know its gona be so freaking hard to plan this stupid bday thing. but i just wana have fun and i wan people i love to be present. but......... apart from my own simple wishful thinking, i have to consider so many different practical things. esp the issue of $$$ :(

i dont want to be like mmjc, making everyone buy tickets to attend her bash. wth. but its not like i can afford EVERYTHING myself. i dont know man. so i guess if no one wans to spend the day with me i guess i'll cancel the whole thing. and spend my bday on the plane home. thats it.