uhh i was tinking abt how i should say this.

I FAILED LARH

thats the best way i can put it across i guess. its the truth anyway so dont need to dillydally too much i'll just say it straight out.

uhhh yea i cried. i wanted to cry when i was in the tp office after the examiner gave me my results. but no im dare-mure enough to not cry there. supressed it. almost let it out on the bus. but no im dare-mure enough to not cry in public. finally reached home. wanted to wail. but oh fuck. why is my brother at home -.- gg

locked myself up in my room and cried the silent tears of regret.

i was so confident actually. my warmup was A-OKAY. then during the test, my CIRCUIT was so perfect. the road too. tink maybe i got conceited? i was like wheee the test is ending alr im gona pass. i forgot still got uturn. but i din tink much of it cuz the uturn during the warmup was GOOD. (both bukitbatok route by the way) but no. suddenly out of nowhere came hordes(?) swarms(?) of cars. stupid. i couldt switch lanes to the most right one. GG ttm. 16points there. then i panicked. almost accident. and thats AN IMMEDIATE FAILURE. ohwell. just my luck i guess. naw. all my fault.

okay. tml interview. today is not gona affect tml. i neeed smu. idk how to face anyone right now. tink if u guys ask me abt it. when i start toking abt i'll start crying. idk why i cant control my emotions right now so yea. typing is ok. toking is not. worse thing is i need to go mummy's childcare right now to help out. how am i supp to tell mummy i failed without crying. shit.

on the way home i heard my parents voices ringing in my ears -.-so damn drama i know. mummy saying aiya i alr ecpected you to not pass. see mummy! i met ur expectations.