i feel like im missing out on alot of things. but its like, the only reason why im missing out is cause i chose to stay away. i chose to be a bitch and ignored the people who cared about me. neglected them and didnt care about them. then i get all :( when i realised im being left behind when im the one who left them first.

what to do? its possible to go back into their lives, or rather get them back into mine. but i cant promise that i wont leave them again soon after.

damn it. hate myself like alot.

okay this is so emo. sry.