DISCLAIMER: DONT READ THIS IF YOU HATE MY FACE CAUSE YOU MIGHT PUKE

Disclaimer: i am not responsible for any regurgitation of previous meals or sudden blindness :)

So right i was looking at my blog dp and i couldnt understand why i choose that picture to put there in the first place. *alarm bells ringing* hence it just means its time for a NEW DP :) but its so hard to choose a nice dp. i dont have pretty dps :( so what to do. choose an uglier one BAH ;D

so by now you should know what to expect for the rest of the blog post. tons and tons of peektures of me. so if you're still reading and you tink u might puke u can stop reading HERE.

YEA HERE.

if anyone is still reading this you can help me choose my DP :) thanks many. i really respect ur guts to wana continue reading. BEWARE anyway.

#1 BLUR IS THE KEY

over the years of camwhoring ive realised lousy cameras are my best frens. or rather cams with low megapixels ;D you know, like my 1.3megapix INNER cam of my handphone ;p

since the picture is so darn blur u almost always look pretty if not passable. like srsly because you cant see any flaws that DSLRs tend to so clearly show. eg. pimples, blemishes and what not. you cant see em at all. you dont even need to wear concealer when ur camwhoring using the 1.3megapix cam! MY BEST FREN. also since its blurry right, sometimes it might create the MYSTERIOUS illusion LOL. im not really sure about that one but it might just work.

PEEKTURE 1 - blurry ME with a smile. SEEEEE CANOT SEE ANY PIMPLES (not like i have ;p teehee), MOLES, BLEMISHES AND EVEN DARK EYE CIRCLE WHOOOP. somemore got the shinny sparkling feeeling NICE.

PEEKTURE 2 - UGLY PIG NOSE PIC. also canot see any flaws.

#2 NERD IS THE NEW PRETTY.

everyones like wearing huge geeky (VECTOR) specs nowadays.

my colleague was just saying how wearing HUGE glasses can make BIG faces smaller ;p teehee. smart idea no? also, when u wear specs right, YOU CANOT SEE THE DARK EYE CIRCLES AS MUCH YEAMAN.

PEEKTURE 3 - me in jy's vector specs. nerdy feel. + weird pinkies. dont judge.

#3 SMILING WITH TEETH IS PRETTIER THAN WITHOUT TEETH.

my fb photo count : 3,272

my fb photo count with teeth: <10

anyway everyone(not really) tells me that i shld smile with my teeth.

so maybe just maybe i'll look nicer smiling with teeth?

PEEKTURE4 - i look nicer smiling with teeth..... NOT. i look plain awkward. can go for awkward dp!

#4 CANDID SHOTS ARE THE BOMB... CUZ 9 OUT OF 10 OF EM ARE SUPER UNGLAM.

esp mine! my candid shots are like super super duper duper unglam ttm i wana dig a hole and hide in it! obviously im not gona post the ugly ones here ;p i cant even bear to look at em

PEEKTURE 5 - i came across this picture and i was like 'WHAAAAA?' hahaha so funny

PEEKTURE 6 - i actually kinda like this picture cuz im like such a kid

PEEKTURE 7 - i totally dont know what i was doing. smirking at someone maybe?

PEEKTURE 8 - this is like the most retarded one luh! smile until no eyes wtf.

PEEKTURE 9 - i think i was sulking at my results :(

#5 RANDOM IS AWESOME

im known for my random and totally unique and retarded and crazy millions of different expresssionssssssssss ;D

PEEKTURE 10 - DIE CHICKEN DIE!

PEEKTURE 11 - think i was trying to do the dou ji yan thing. make my eyeballs both go to the middle.
PEEKTURE 12 - PLAIN DUMB, trying to screw up my face
PEEKTURE 13 - actually i like this pic leh ehehe

PEEKTURE 14 - SPASTIC TTM. sry guys i dont why im so retarded.

roughly about this part of the blog post i realised i canot possibly put an ugly, unglam, retarded picture of me no matter how much i think i should because i cant seem to find any pretty pics of me. :( so i went to search HIGH and LOW and i actually managed to find this pic that looks passable to me. okay larh to be honest i tink i look QUITE pretty not bad in it EHEH.

somemore its in the polaroid mode leh. and you know just how much i love taking polaroids! *hint* someone get me INSTAX for my bday ;D

OKAY this is a boliao post because i was stuck at my tutee's SEC3 AMATH qns and didnt wana do the qns no more. KAY BYE. DP CHOSEN ;D

NEEDS A NEW DP ON MY BLOG TO REPLACE AN UGLY PEEKTURE WITH ANOTHER UGLY ONE.

OFF TO PARTY TONIGHT. BLOG TML, MAYBE? ;D

out of all those frens how many can you actually confide in? rant to? pour ur heart out to?

how many will you choose to do so? how many that you know who will actually listen?

ulitmate bitch i think i am. when i heard bad news about one of my family members. my first response was that 'whew, its not directly related to me' wtf. hates myself to the core now. please please please dont let the week get worse then it already is. this is my first time pleading so hard and sounding so desperate i cant recognise myself.

rachel-sarah TayHuiSTAR says:

;D

or i can take the easy way out

and slack and go nus

;p

gandhistoto~ says:

why wud u want to do tt?

rachel-sarah TayHuiSTAR says:

easier life

gandhistoto~ says:

but not a better lige

life*

well it may seem scary now

but as u go along with ur uni life, i guess it will just flow naturally

especially since u will be making lots of friends who experience the same thing

well it wud be wrong to say dun think about it now

but dun think too much

as in dun let the many opportunities scare u

if u cant grab them all at once or during ur first year, just take them slowly

develop at ur own pace

nobody's going to scold u for tt

wew, sry if i sounded like an old lecturer haha

rachel-sarah TayHuiSTAR says:

its ok

i like the insights

idk larh what if the people dont like me

cuz i too act cute

annoying?

gandhistoto~ says:

lol

then make them like u

rachel-sarah TayHuiSTAR says:

stupid? retarded?

crazy?

then dont wana be my fren

gandhistoto~ says:

if some ppl cant accept u as u r, surely ther r others who will

rachel-sarah TayHuiSTAR says:

oooooo ;D

gandhistoto~ says:

if u r kind enough to ppl, they will be kind to u

if u helpful to ppl, they will be helpful to u la

its physics haha

ok not rly

rachel-sarah TayHuiSTAR says:

lol

even tho they dont like my personality?

gandhistoto~ says:

if u r very kind n helpfull to them, they will feel bad not liking ur personality

rachel-sarah TayHuiSTAR says:

wow

gandhistoto~ says:

btw, im being serious here haha

n think positive la n postive things will happen to u

rachel-sarah TayHuiSTAR says:

needs to rmb this convo

finally done with my tuition assignment! that took pretty long to finish and its only supposed to be 2hrs worth of work BAH. anyways i was super slack at work tday ;p

had time to delete 10k emails from my personal email. then went to pack my table. now its just so bare :( im quite sad about leaving actually cuz like the new temp will come and before long, i'll just be forgotten sighs.

anyhow, fj was telling me that she was seeing her same tutee for 3 TIMES THIS WK WTF. so i figured out that i shld be seeing my tutee 2x this week since his midyrs are coming!! so gona be having tuition again this sunday. that reminds me i should go try out his amath qns cuz i took his amath workbook home. i never knew such a thing existed hehe.

received all my acceptance to all 3 unis. csb. obviously i'll accept smu. but theres some stuff thats stopping me frm clicking the accept me button. if i was so sure abt smu, i wld have accepted it the moment ive gotten the letter which is what almost everyone expected me to have done.

smu is like my ultimate dream sch. ive nvr gotten into my first choice school before.

i wanted to go nanyang since p1. i went to sc. i wanted to go nj since sec3. i went ac. and since sec 3-4 i wanted to go smu. and BAM i got offered. you know the feeling of having ur wish granted? yea that was the feeling i had when i saw smu's letter.

nus is like my backup plan school. like if smu doesnt want me, i'll just go to nus.

ntu uhh dont wana even tok abt it. yucks.

but like if i go smu...i really need to work very hard and juggle my stuff really well esp since im most prob gona continue giving tuition. and the whole i-need-to-come-out-of-my-comfort-zone-and-stop-hiding thing. wow. scary.

then another thing is i'll be separated from my frens :( booo.

ive been in the SAME freaking sch as fj since primary sch. zps. scgs. acjc. then now we wun be in the same sch anymore. cant go to sch tgt anymore. cant rely on her for no matter what anymore. booooooo :(

csb

Please select the course you wish to accept:

NTU - Economics
NUS - Arts and Social Sciences
SMU - Bachelor of Business Management
Reject all Offers of Admission

shld be independent and not rely on others always.

abit frustrated now.

alot sleepy.

shall go to sleep and chiong tml instead.

oh btw

i came home and received NTU's letter that i got into NTU ECONS hahahahahaha

so funny yeap thats my first choice. like i kinda anyhow put one and its even more funny cuz in the letter ntu said smth like oh its so selective but uhh. HELLO? i got C for econs leh!!

finally understands how hard it is to earn $$

im doing like 3jobs today. my tiger balm office till 530pm, then i went to give tuition frm 730-9pm. i just reached home and need to do my other tuition admin work now.

but im like so tired now but i have no choice. the deadline is tml 930pm and where will i be at 930pm tml? bryan's hse playing mahjong hence i NEED to chiong finish the work today sigh.

JUST GAVE MY FIST EVER TUITION WOW ;D this sec 3 guy frm compassvale sec.

his parents generously bought me strawberry sundae, mac chicken and coke ;D hehe. diet plan epi phail but nvm. i must say tutoring is quite fun HAHA ;D the last time i did tutoring was when i was in p1 and we had peer mentoring? whereby the p5s and p6s tutored weak p1s and p2s. and no i wasnt there because i was weak. its cuz my bro was a mentor and i went to sch tgt with him and hence i became a 'mentor' there too. i was tutoring my fellow p1 frens. like wow. im so pro. IKNOW ;D

okay i need to go do my work now.

time for a normal post

omg this is my 4th post for the day 0.0

im soooo tired but happy that im finally done with uploading, tagging and blogging omg. that took so long to accomplish.

so like im looking at my peektures when i was tagging them like just 5mins ago, and i cant help but ew at my face :( someone help me im like turning uglier and uglier. im not saying that i was pretty before, but like sometimes i have some (okay like maybe a few) decent peektures that are actually maybe abit on the pretty side? but nowadays i look at my albums and its peektures after peektures of ugly ugly ugly. its worst when i look at grp shots because im like the ugliest one urgh. i feel so depressed now. and it doesnt help because ive been watching antm the past few days and they models' peektures are so pretty that its stunning. fml larh. and i go to my albums and im like. EWWW. EEEYUR. since when i so ugly one. why my face so big (okay this one i know is since forever.p) why my eyes so small. fml i hate my round and big face. why i dont havbe prominent cheekbones. why i got so much baby fats. i wana slim down. have a nicer face shape.

so for the most part i just am disgusted over my face since most of my peektures only have my face. then in some rare shots i see my whole body and i tend to look at my tummy (as in really look down and lift my shirt to stare at my tummy) and im like freak larh why am i so fat. the models are like ultra skinny. and sometimes im super mean like when im on the streets, i see not-so-pretty girls who are slim and im like thinking to myself 'what the hell, even tho shes ugly, she doesnt have a tummy freak larh' i know like thats super bitchy but still i cant help it. and im like super lazy to exercise. i finally did some situps and crunches ytd night after not doing it in weeks. i feel so insecure like cause i have a tummy and i have to keep fretting about what to wear even though theres so many clothes in my wardrobe but i cant wear like 50% of em because of my tummy. and it doesnt help that my babe just innoccently commented that i got more 'rou' now that day at jks's fanmeet. like what the hell. the last time she commented i was fatter i cldnt bring myself to step out of the house without a cardigan/jacket/ anything to cover my arms for a mth. and she has to say that again. but its like i dont even see it. dont know what shes toking about. as in currently i dont think my arms are fatter lah. just that my tummy is a HUGE issue. i cant go party because i cant wear sexy clothing because my tummy is fat. fml. i totally admire those fat chicks who dare to wear sleeveless clothing or even clothing that bares their tummy/ backs. and i mean those really fat ones like > 70kg kind fat chicks larh. total respect. they totally can like bare their tummies to the world with no care and dance their night away.

okay so anyway this is a total rant post ;p and random but i was tinking abt how im so immature and childish. like my frens said that day that my mentality is that of a 13yr old. and like i think im super act cute. gg. i know most (okay ALL) of my frens think that im super act cute and cant stand it but sometimes like i really cant help it. im not doing it purposely larh. its just me. i dont know if you guys know that but uhh yea. so like i was tinking abt it, like if im gona be the way i am now even in say, 10yrs' time? or like when im 30yrs old will i still be so act cute??? omg can you just imagine that!!! freak man. its a super high possiblity. so like anyway i think people dont like me becuz they tink im super act cute like on purpose. so i was thinking abt that and im quite worried about making frens in uni. like if im going smu biz. can u imagine, everyone is like so prim and proper and mature and grownup and im like so not all that. GG TTM :(

MY LITTLE BF

missed these peektures from my before genting post.

so rmbed i said i went to the childcare again that day and i went to take peektures of the kids. okay not alot of em since it was saturday and most of em werent there

so this is pei en! i first met her when she was 2 yrs old and i was helping out with their graduation day. and she remembered me every since and now shes 5 yrs old already. wow 3YEARS HAVE PASSED. think she quite likes me :)

and this is xuan qi! shes the one who kept climbing up on my lap when they were watching teevee (GOGO) and shes super adorable.

okay anyway i have to say that unfortunately no matter how much i can fit in with the kids because our mentality level is like around the same, i cant work in the early childhoold sector cause i cant carry the kids. like, ive never had any exp with small kids (infant to toddlers) before cause ive never had any baby cousins. and im so weak. (like strength) i cant carry the 2yr olds with one arm. fml right totally. i was so trying to carry em properly but i cant! and they kept slipping down :( i tried carrying xuanqi so many times i felt so sorry for her cause i kept failing ;p
so anyway, rmbed how i said i have a little boyfren? yup hes YETONG and hes from vietnam HAHA. hes 2 this yr and is soooo darn cute :) but he has some issues :( like he chooses people so if he dont like you he wldnt even let you touch his bag or anything. the first time i went he was okay with me. but i dontknow that day when i went he didnt want me:( omg i was so heartbroken!! maybe cuz the moment i reached the childcare, he was at the toilet and my mum asked me to make sure he washed his hands, so when i was trying to make him wash his hands (he din want to) he just kept saying BUYAO BUYAO BUYAO and pushed me away :( omgggg my heart like just shattered. or maybe its cuz i was wearing heavier makeup then the prev time and he didnt recognize me? wahhh. but i still love him! hes so cute ;p

and this is his peekture!!!

MY LITTLE BF ;D

super super cute RIGHTTTTT ive got gd taste okay!

WITH GANG & JKS

had gang lunch at marina sq on GOODFRIDAY! ;D and guess who was going there too? THE VERY PRETTY AND TALENTED JKS!! he was having at fanmeet there

we had lunch at kenny's :) my second time in a week! just that one is in msia and the other is in sg


can you see the little glass bottles on the shelves? so cool right. they had all sorts of old sch glass bottles for SALE ;D
our corn muffinssssss



and our CHICKENNNN ;D
mich bought the A&W glass bottle !! $3
me and my jean shared snapple for $4
some cool glass bottle hanging light ;p
the three babes sitting opp me ;D van, dahling and mich. dahling was back for easter! ;D

loves her eye makeup for the day
and the 3 even prettier babes, me my jean and joanieeee

must camwhore more with jks's poster ;p
me and pretty dahling ;D they were buying BUBBLE TEA ;D
and my 5 pretty babes:) lovelovelove
the desk partners!

after that dahling and joan had to leave and my babe came for jks's fanmeet and she brought along our souvenirs from hongkong! this is van's PANDA COOKIES so cuteeeee
me van myjean and mich went to the arcade ;D played daytonaaaa (idk how to spell)

imma PROCAR RACER OKAY

afterthat mich and myjean left and me van and babe continued to wait for jks's arrival
this is me camwhoring with the black flower my babe bought for me ;D so weird to wear the flower. so anyway we spotted a very interesting person in the crowd. can you see her?
can you see her now?
now?
NOWWWW? hahahaha
so freaking funny this pink lolita. if you wana see her face, keep reading till the end of the post ;p

so anyway, jks finally arrived at like 7pm? cant believe i waited 4-5hrs for him omg i must have been CRAZYY. can u spot him in the crowd???

TADA!


hes sooo PRETtttyyyyyyyyyy
ANYWAY his fan club did some dance for him
and this is him super happy, waving the cabbage around ;p

and i promised you the face of the PINK LOLITA

TADA!!!!

HEHEHEHEHE