tml is my last day of work :(

think im gona be so sad tml :( 2weeks of gan qing leh! friendships forged and new experiences! im so super glad i got to work as a guazi seller! anyways i shall just throw here a picture of us that i took today haha ;p alots pple arent in it though! :(

PICTURES AT LAST!

i finally have pictures on my blog ;D just came back from work+ supper with songloser, jermayne and kelvin. MONODEAL IS SO FUN ;D im quite tired actually but i thought to come upload the pictures if not my blog will be so DULLLLLLLLLLLLLLL.

anyways this picture is from like super long ago! class pool day 19jan haha. jingyi got her new BIG geek glasses super cool ;D

then yesterday was my off day and i went back ac to visit the teachers with nick and bryan

after that met jermayne after her work to go 'shopping' around LOT1 HAHA. quite fail.

i came home and my mum got me new bedsheets. LOOK AT IT OMG SUPER PINK AND GIRLY.can you believe it? i dont want so super pink and girly bedsheets! my previous one was grey and navy blue! super dude-like. but now. its girly girl!

im quite sad actually cause work is gona come to an end soon! 3 more days to go:( im gona miss everyone alot man. 2weeks of friendships! working laughing joking retarding eating together!

ohyea and i passed my final theory evaluation today! 98% SMART ME haha ;D

MOODY

aish i feel so down and moody! been mood swinging alot the past 2days. it sucks man.

my mood swings ----------- i become sad

+cramps ----------------- i feel horrible

+i feel terrible im being a super terrible friend cause im so moody -------------- i feel even more down and sad

aiyo! so sorry to everyone whom i have moodswinged to, ytd and today. i hope tml will be better! i actually have pictures to post here. but im not feeling well so, i'll prob post them tml when my cramps go away. and anyway i need to go study for FTE tml.

loves my babe, mei and june for coming to visit me at work today! ;D

uh i need to study for my ftt :( i dont want to read the book it is so damn boring.

anyways. i dont really know what to make of my life right now. it only has work and driving in it. yesterday i went for work then driving then came home and fell asleep while watching the 2nd ep of southpark and when i wokeup it was only 1020pm. but i still went back to sleep anyway. OMG right? and today, i went for work, went driving and went back to work. wadthehell is wrong with my life. it has nothing but this two things. its not like im complaining about them cause i enjoy both equally much! but i feel like farrrrrrrr away from other things. like my other friends that i dont get to see. or even simply just spending alone time in the solitude of my room. sleeping in my room is not counted. ohwell. i miss fj, my babe, june, jingyi especially and of course others others! i like my new friends (two old ones) but i missed my old friends :( luckily they came to visit me so like i still get to see em! like im having dinner with my babe TML ;D happy! but my dinner break is only like 30mins so yea im not spending enough quality time with them. and i so need to go shopping! and mani! and a haircut. all these before CNY! howwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!

AND IM SUPER SAD THAT MY POSTS HAVE NO PICS! i dont even feel like posting anymore cause i have nothing much to write about here because there is nothing much in my life other than work and driving hence there are no pics:(

nice JO came to visit today ;D

go fuck yourself

im still feeling PFFT. probably cause its something ive been tanking for like sometime already. so i blew it all out in one shot. anyway i still feel wronged because the other person who is at fault doesnt get any blame at all. and ive been tanking all the blame. so oh wells.

enough of the not so happy things! im like neglecting my blog cause i come home from work late and is so freaking tired i sometimes dont even on my comp. i just lie on bed and fall asleep in seconds. wadthehell. one week down. one more week to go! but its not like im complaining because i really like this job! (just that if only there were chairs for us to sit haha) and the environment is super nice. i like all the people there! (L) and plus cck is so freaking near my house ;D and i like dealing with people! im cut out for the service sector haha. oh speaking of being cut out, yesterday i was just doing my thing during work (eating the food samples there) and this uncle saw me and commented that im super cut out for the job cause i eat and sell at the same time LOL.

anyways my blog posts are gona be so boring! currently my life only revolves around work and driving! yesterday i went shopping though but no stamina cause i worked in the morning and was tired so shopping ended quite early. but i still managed to buy some stuff ;D like new sephora BLACK LINER ;D and lipstick! super loves the stick! the colour is so nice pink!

guess i have nothing much to talk about here! oh im like watching southpark now ;p LOL and then tml will be just work and then going for FTL with bryan. 5pm-9pm gona rot and die i think. this whole week i will be going to bbdc EVERYDAY! mad crazy. yea i know!

such a fool

seriously you are such a fool i dont even wana waste my breath on you anymore and to correct your screwed up mentality. not even knowing the correct story, the real truth behind the whole matter while whole heartedly devoting yourself to one. that is bloody hell dumb. then you think of us as the bad guys. that is what makes my blood boil. you and your disgusting notions. just get all of em out of my life man.

feel like dying OMG

is like the most tiring day of my job so far. omg i stood for 9hours straight and my feet feel numb. no feeling liao. today was a super packed day! i had to wakeup at 530am to go for driving lesson. i was so sleepy, my eyes kept closing and i almost fell asleep a few times. my car kept going right and left to the point the instructor asked me if i wanted to end lesson early haha. then i had to bus down to town taka to sign my contract for the new job. yea so i signed the contract and i will be working as a temp admin assistant starting 9feb at commonwealth:)

so after contract signing i went to shop around ION for abit before finally bussing back to lot1 for work. today was so crazy busy! i worked from 1pm-10pm. was my first time working night shift and its so crazy crowded and busy :(

on a happy note, june, my babe and jean came to visit me today! was super happy to see them ;D hahas! oh and zhengyang too LOL.

can you just shut the fuck up :)

just came back from class outing and im super tired. ultra sore feet :( and sore feeling. and a bunch of other %$#@!&% feelings. sore feet from standing up the entire day, working is hard work. sore feeling from losing and losing and losing. i cant seem to get the ball in the hole. and even if i do, the white ball always follows. i actually shot in 2 balls in one shot. but they werent mine. %$#@!&% feelings regarding some other stuff that i will not post here.

will blog about the class outing more soon. im like so tired so should go sleep soon and i have to wake up at 530am tml wadthehell. driving lesson at 730am AGAIN. im so smart.

you are disgusting

cake X2

daytwo of work :) still very fun! haha i had a big customer! she spent like $103 ;DDDDDDD

ended work at like 4pm and had to rush around to buy stuff. present for bro and cake for joan's bday then bus-ed down to waffletown to meet up with JEANGANG. ;D super awesome. found out that im the only blood AB ;O i didnt know i was special! hahas. after that had to go buy cake for bro's bday which is today.

i am so tired now but there is nothing to do and i dont want to sleep and i kinda also have nothing to blog about. class outing tml. lousy attendance again i bet. boooo. not happy.

oh and uhh. my 'junior' at work today told me not to go clubbing haha

first day of work!

good cause im not tired. ;D im super girl cause i only went for 1 toilet break from 9am to 5pm. i didnt even go for lunch break haha pro much. thats cause i kept eating the food there ;p papaya strips and raisins! YUMS ;)

im like the oldest younger girl there. okay that is oxymoron? as in among the younger generation, im the oldest girl. :( the rest all 16 haha. surprised to meet songyu there too lol apparently he is nick's pri sch fren. small world.

i like this job. very fun cause dealing with all kinds of aunties and uncles LOL. i got 'scolded' by a mean uncle though. i was so damn scared. and my head got hit by the cashier drawer too LOL. but all in all. enjoyable. lower pay than telemarketing by alot but more fun and less boring ;D

suckling PIG ;D

went for basic theory lesson tday wif bryan and his dad even though i already passed my btt -.- kinda lame but yea thats why enrolling via school sucks. was a complete waste of time besides the hilarious bryan dad vs. instructor thing. that one was funny.

then went down to csc to meet june nick and jo for pool! i love pool ;D my third time playing but i still sucked. but highlight of the day was when i managed to shoot in 3 conseq balls. hehe. ;D tyco much! anyway when i was about to leave to meet my family, the light bulb above our pool table fell down -.- was shocked haha. so the guy had to come over to vacuum up the glass shards.

haha we took this picture while the guy was cleaning up ;p

so after that dad came to fetch me for bro's bday dinner @ turf city. the food was okay. like passable. only the SUCKLING PIG and fish was nice. omgomgomg i love suckling pig so so much. i think i can finish the WHOLE PIG on my own HAHA.

anyway there was this showoff haolian 'tai tai' (i put the '' cause its unknown whether she is really rich anot haha) at the table beside ours and she was so damn talkative. talk talk talk nonstop. annoyed me, my bro and his gf cause we were sitting the closest to her. urgh. they even brought their own glass wine and wine to the restaurant. okay whatever -.- anyway we entertained ourselves by making jokes out of her throughout the whole dinner. she was wearing a BRIGHT YELLOW blouse so i started calling her banana, lemon, pineapple and then started to repeat after whatever she said. but i think she is a super self absorbed person hence she didnt hear that we were making fun of her HAHA.

after dinner we went to the BIG GIANT to shop for stuff. been kind of long since we last went to a huge supermarket together as a family so i was pretty happy. its awesome cause i get to buy all sorts of things and i dont have to pay for em haha. daddy pays for everything. so we got chips, alcohol, cupnoodles and what not all sorts of junk food ;D

now i know already! when im drunk it doesnt mean i'll start giggling and laughing like a retard. but if i start laughing ALOT, then i'll feel super high and abit like im drunk even though i never drink at all and i'll keep wanting to laugh. -.- super weird. haha cause the whole dinner i was laughing damn alot (due to the jokes about the yellow banana woman) and then i cant stop talking LOL. and i felt HIGHHHH hahaha. okay retarded.

my life is soooo blah

i have nothing to write about here. life is so boring. i wokeup at 6am to go for driving lesson at 730am. my reasoning for booking the earliest slot is so that i can end lesson at 9am and go home go back to sleep LOL. but i kinda missed out the fact that i have to wakeup at like 6am. which sucks. i was so damn sleepy. luckily i didnt fall asleep while driving if not i might not be able to be typing out this post now. anyway today i almost got into an accident and it was totally not my fault. because THE INSTRUCTOR WAS DRIVING lol. yea we were nearing the zebracrossing when this foreign worker on a bicycle was riding across it. i thought the instructor was gona brake and stop the car or at least slow down. BUT HE DID NONE OF THAT. he continued his speed. wth. almost collided into the bicycle. stupid instructor. not to mention he braked like SUPER LAST MINUTE and HARD. i could had flew infront haha.

speaking of driving. bbdc is a great place to meet new and old friends. so anyway i saw this ac guy and i think he is super chiongster he like goes there EVERYDAY and probably booked 2-3slots a day? like i saw him all of this week when i went for lessons and my lessons werent all the same slot. like i had the 730am slot, 1130am and 1310pm slot. and i saw him there during all slots. CHIONGSTER MUCH.

after driving i came home, ate brunch. haha i ate a choc bar for breakfast while going to bbdc. then watched wizards of waverly. i swear alex is getting on my nerves she is such a bitch. ohwell. if she isnt, each eps wldnt even last 20mins. 5mins tops perhaps. then i took a 4hr nap haha. awesome life. wokeup and then ate dinner. watched tv and more waverly.

im starting work next week! im kind of excited cause i dont wana be useless and hole up at home all day sleeping. but im kinda :( cause it meant i wldnt be able to go out and play. oh but still. theres pool this sunday yay. im suddenly really interested in pool idky. and then clubbing on wednesday after work. it is gona be legend...........dary! happy. but then im kinda not too pleased about the fact that the locals are so un enthu. i dont know whats the word for it but urgh. they dun reply to the events at all. super :( if only the scholars were back. will have so much more fun. pfffffft. speaking of scholars i talked to panmeng yesterday on msn! ;D she finally finally came online haha missed her so much. found out she too is learning driving WHOOOOP ;D anyways i just hope that the turn out on wednesday will be great. if not i'll be so :( cheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

earliest clubbers

yesterday i finally met up with my babe! she became like some couch potato person who holed up at home and didnt see sunlight for 2wks OMO. scary much.

went shopping at fareast. i haven been shopping there for quite some time. anyways shopping with intention sucks. everytime you go shopping with something in mind that you need to get, you end up getting everything but that. but yesterday was like a new record. both of us didnt even spend any money even after 2-4hrs? (i think) haha. cool. i was supposed to get a cny dress and a new clubbing dress. and well my babe just had to get out into the sun haha. so yea i bought a slity (not sluty) dress for clubbing. and i settled for a cny top.

after that we finally went to clarkequay! we werent there to club, but to look for a job at club/pub/bar. reached there around 5pm? the only people there were tourists. lots of em haha. the interviews were at 6pm so we went around to camwhore a little first.

helipad! brings back memories :)

we were trying to find zirca but cldnt so i called up shao but he didnt pick up. (realised hours later that he was actually flying to korea that day so dumb) hahas. but thanks to bryan we finally found zirca.

so after the interview, we finally settled for dinner at BBQ chicken. i missed BBQ chicken so much. they used to have one at cine but they closed down and the very last time i ate it was wif shaun at westcoast plaza. lucky for me the central had one too! i think the chicken there is even better than astons :P

you know the whole, only after you start working will you realised how hard it is to earn money and hence you will spend ur money more wisely thing? it doesnt work for me at all. rather, its the opposite. i started spending MORE after i earned money. ohmygawd what is wrong with me! ehh but i think i treated/bought things for quite a number of my friends haha. like for no reason at all. just because i started earning money and i felt like treating em. okay thats weird. ohwell.

staying at home is so damn boring. ive finished how i met your mother all 6 seasons to current one. and now im watching *drumroll of lameness* WIZARDS OF WAVERLY PLACE. LOL sorry im young at heart. anyways driving lessons are awesome. ive completed stage 1 today! i passed 3 subjects tday AWESOME. though i think the guy passed me cause he was being nice/sympathetic haha. and tomorrow is the stage1 review. i hope i do well! ;D

i hate my parents. its like i can do nth right. i just had a super big row with em because i said i was gona go bryan's hse for slpover next week. and my mum was like 'are u sure its with other pple? it better not be only you and him' wadthefuck. so i had enough of her not trusting me and what so ever and i just shouted that i slept with alot of guys. fuck. with resulted in my parents' outrage and me storming off to my room. anyway its damn stupid.

they always always dont think im capable of anything. like when i was in sec4 they said things like 'oh just go poly, u cfm cant make it into a jc' or like 'you sure u can get into a jc?' wadthefuck right. same for now. 'u sure u can get into a uni?' that kind of fucking statements. yea and now with driving too. im all like 'yay i drove to westmall and back' and they are all like 'yea im sure' or like 'why you so lousy' its so fucking irritating. i mean like its not even like they are my frens suaning me. for gods sake they are my parents and they are fucking looking down on me. way to raise a kid. not to forget yesterday i wore a short dress and my mum said i looked like a prostitute. she didnt even say it in a refined and nicer way.

and it doesnt only happen like once in a while. i mean its like my whole life. 'you sure u can do that?' 'why you so lousy? xxx so much better than you' 'you should learn from xxx'

what the fuck. i know im useless. but i didnt ask to be born

i have a splitting headache but i still crawled out of bed to take a leap of faith. i mean we all only live once.

this is why i love fj :)

FJ says:

when you start work, you ll meet this same age cute filial guy whos buying guazi for his parents who ll also happen to get dumbstruck by you cos you re too pretty and then he ll wait for you to get off work

and then he ll ask you to have a late night drink with him

and then send you home after that to makesure you go home safely

rachel-sarah TayHuiSTAR says:

HAHA

FUNNY

FUNNY

FUNNY

FJ says:

and then shun bian exchange numbers and emails with you

rachel-sarah TayHuiSTAR says:

i shall post that on my blog

FJ says:

and then he will keep buying guazi from you to keep seeing you and talking to you everyday

and meet you during your lunch break

*dont ask me where he throw all the guazi he buys*

a fariytale for you

because you deserve it

HAHA but dear, there are no such things as fairytales in reality.

crap

oh dear i cant stop feeling hungry.

btw i drove up to 70km/hr today! ;D

cupcakes and pool

we drove into malaysia for breakfast on sunday morning and i bought cupcakes for TEA to bring to keejia's house:) BAKED RICE was awesome! thankyou keejia's mum! the cupcakes were so pretty right? too bad they din taste as nice haha.

been such a long time since we all went to chill out at keejia's. did stupid retarded sisterly stuff like baked rice tarots pics and even watch A CINDERELLA STORY. which keejia and i kind of hated haha. I MEAN there are no such things as fairytale endings in reality. PFFT.

okay this picture of the 3 of us is kinda nice just that i looked really stupid cause we were trying out the 3sec timer and i was kinda late haha. ohwells.

.......................

so then we had a class thing yesterday, after i went for driving lesson at bbdc. I DROVE out to like westmall area! awesome right! met bryan and kumar and went to the civic club place for pool. later, jingyi shao and nick came. and we finally went for dinner. then watched THE TOURIST with shao and nicktan. the movie was blah.

once again i put my cam-timer skills to great use!

omg i think my blog posts are getting BLAH. its like i have nothing much to write and im slowly reverting back to my old blogposts style. this is bad!

i shall talk about random stuff then. i think i might become/be a cougar omg! its not like i want to but idk maybe i might really turn into one. it sucks to be this age, 18-19. you seem so old when you compare yourself to the people who are schooling. like i cant even look at guys on the road now because 80% of the time they are in their uniform and they are YOUNGER than me. -.- so if you want older guys, they have to be like 20yrs old? and that sounds really really old omg. so it wun be my fault if i do turn into a cougar.aish i so wish im fourteen again. :(

and then. i kinda found out that my friends are all going out on dates this friday. why is it that everyone has a date on friday except me. everyone got lucky except me! sian. is it because of my face? my personality? my wad? lol. its damn pathetic. i thought i was only ugly but i didnt know that now im not only ugly but scary too. like do i look gruesome? today when i was crossing the road, this little boy was looking at my direction and started to hide behind his maid, while sneaking peeks at my direction and even ran to hide behind the traffic light post. wth. now i look so gruesome im scaring little kids too? wow. okay life sucks i just have to deal with it. and i totally should stop drinking. i shldnt have vodka in my house because i'll drink it every night or whenever i feel a little bit upset. like last night, and also the night before that. what is wrong with me omg. another thing. my parents refuse to let me go back to church. and also, im a really slow learner. like people clear 2 subjects per driving lesson, on the average. but i only clear 1 subject. this really sucks. and because i kept going out everyday, im becoming broke. and my parents refuse to give me travel fare cause they insist its my fault for going out everyday and travelling to far places. and im not gona have an income till like 2 wks later? and i think something is wrong with my moods. maybe its post-ms. or not. or maybe its cause i tend to revert back to my happy mood like 1 sec after i get angry or upset, hence all the anger and sadness and negative emotions are built up within me so nowadays when i get angry or down i cant seem to revert back to being happy immediately, i end up getting super frustrated and depressed. damn it. and another thing is that i feel so fat. im like 46kg AGAIN. i feel that my arms are so fat and flabby and there are tons of guys out there with skinner thighs and lower thighs than me. and then the whole im super lonely thing. that sucks the most. and yea A levels. what the hell is gona happen to me in 2 mths time? i dun wana think about it but its so hard not to think about it. actually its so hard not to think about all these things. and there are so many things im insecure/worrying/upset/frustrated about right now. a girl can only take so much.

oh yea and you know what my mum did? suddenly she starts questioning me who im going out with and where im going out to everytime im going out. and it just so happens that everytime she questions me, i was going out with a guy. so like 2 days ago she came into my room with this newspaper article about a 15yr old girl who fooled around with like alot of guys. and the article had this section where they wrote something like 'how to know if your daughter might be fooling/sleeping around with guys'

1.she is always going out with alot of different guys

2. she comes home very late at night

and my mum was like 'you fit into all the criteria'

and i was like wth -.-

and she said something like 'you better not be fooling around with guys'

WADTHEFUCK.

i am not that insensible and stupid okay mum?

cool. i haven used that word for such a long time. but i just suddenly felt like there was a need to rant and clear my cupboard and unburden my crap. so yea. sorry for all these nonsense. tada.

cross road

i kept feeling cold. the sun is up and everything but im still feeling very cold. something is up. i might be falling sick. but its not possible! I, the ultimate immune girl cant be falling sick. i dun fall sick.

so anyway i woke up at 545 today (courtesy of my mum) to drive into msia to have breakfast with them. after breakfast we went to a local WET market because my mum insisted i have to go experience how the markets are like. It was so disgusting. It smelt like something died in there and the floor was like WET. urgh. The whole time there i was just thinking i wana go home i wana go home, i better not touch something, something better not touch me

it was the most EWW ever. and then i saw a big FAT RAT. it was like huge okay? anyways i kept entertaining my parents with my failed hokkien haha. i said something like 'wet markets are rats' cemetery' or something LOL.

i just realised most of the time i end my paragraphs and start new ones abruptly, like they can have no connections at all ;p

after yesterday, i came to acknowledge all the difficulties i was having in life at this point in time. and i didny know there were so many of them. Like how about im like floating around with no aims in life, not knowing what im gona do with myself. What kind of person i wana be and what kind of person i really am. And just how scared i am of loneliness. I think i will really wilt and die if i have no friends. My two best friends have each other, my babe has her books and im like alone. sigh. how i cant even talk properly to the guy i like but i can blab like a retard to other guys im not interested in. (yesterday's car ride home proved that AGAIN) how i cant give up and how maybe im destined to be brothers with all the guys in the world and i'll never get romance. only bromance... and all sorts of other things.

okay i should just stop wallowing in self pity. and go for baked rice now, bye.

something happened

okays i have totally no idea what to put as the title of this post so yea. thats why u see a totally lame title. so today i was supposed to stay at home and clean up my messy room. but no. i didnt do that. instead i went to church.

i have never ever been to one in my whole life and im always getting invites to my frens' churches but i never really found the time to go. but then (0kay this might sound weird), i kinda missed monday chapels @ AC. more so the songs part haha. so i decided to give it a go!

met shaun at REDHILL to go for his church. had cell group thingy first. and then dinner at HANS and finally the actual service.

I was like WOWed when i entered the place cause i never knew churches songs can be so high haha. but yea it was awesome. but during sermon i was rather bored. haha. but the pastor guy was soooooo into it. then later came this part whereby we were supposed to feel the holy spirit. and something happened. like some people started sobbing and crying. and there was this LOUD scream even. okay im gona be honest, at first i was like POOT (no offence) cause the guy's sobs sounded funny. but then something happened.

i dont know if its because i tend to feel down and even cry when i see others crying or maybe because something happened. But halfway through when i finally decided to put out my hands to let it rain on me, i actually teared. i dont know how it happened but suddenly all those stuff and issues and thoughts that were in my brain became more prominent(?) and then emotions started welling up in me. okay super weird yea i know. and thats not the weird part. the weird part is because before today, i couldnt even cry at all. like i tried and tried but cldnt even squeeze out a single tear. but then suddenly when i put out my hands,

tears actually came to me. okay. weird.

okay enough about the weird part. so service ended really late. like 1030pm? and i had no idea how to walk back to the mrt station haha. but luckily for me one of shaun's cellmate drove, and another also lived at bp so yeap i scored a free ride home:)

IMMA GOING MSIA FOR BREAKFAST TML HAHA ;D and then ofcourse, to KEEJIA'S HOUSE FOR BAKED RICE YUMS

roti prata + icecream

yupp! That is what i just had! ROTI PRATA + ICECREAM ! super YUMS! i was at the supermarket getting cupnoodles to return to my bro( because i ate his) and i went to the frozen section to get roti prata so that i could cook em since i was always too lazy to go down to buy lunch. Hence from now, imma have cupnoodles/ prata for lunch haha.

i feel so FAT after eating that omg. but its so delicious!

so today i went for my 3rd driving lesson. has been 1 week since my last one and omg i forgot alot of things:( i felt super bad! cause i was wasting my time and money. the instructor + everyone around me was telling me how impt it was that i go more frequently during my first few lessons so that i get my foundation right first. bahhh. too late now. but nevermind! imma having 3 lessons next week haha :)

just painted my nails. i have no idea what colour it is. its kinda like dark purple? like darker than maroon. it looks horrible. i suck at painting nails! :( but i cant go do mani now. need to wait till its nearer to cny haha. and i also dont know what colour i should paint my nails! something light? or dark? baby pink? or navy blue?

my room is in such a mess! I have a pile of clothes on my floor and a pile of all-sorts-of-things on my table. Cause ive been going out everyday in the morn and only coming home at night so im like super tired and just throw my clothes on the floor and put wadeva stuff on my table and just shove em in a pile so that i can use my laptop. my room looks just like a pig sty omg. i have new clothes in bags, clothes ive worn and clothes i haven worn and loads of plastic bags on my floor. (my mum just gave me a sip of DOM -.- supposed to have gd night's sleep after that) and my table is full of crap. I have:

NTU openhse brochure, camera, pens, rings, bangles, pouches, phone, gloss, water bottles, earphones, notebks, rom's bks, driving bks, christmas presents, planner, laptop, umbrella, tissue, calendars, post its, pay receipt, plastic bags with purchase, choco bars, rubber band

ahh i cant stand the messy shit. but im too lazy to clean em ;p plus i wokeup at 12 today and then left for driving lesson shortly after than so no time to clean ;p. excuses! okay i'll clean em tml i promise!

so anyways i got my work schedule today! people come down buy GUAZI from me! ;p hahas. starting work on 17jan and will be working wif nicktan. i really dun like the uniform:( its so ugly urgh. i just hope i'll have fun!

12am-12pm

slping from 12am to 12pm IS THE LIFE ;D

jobhunting:)

what a tiring day it was omg. wells at least i didnt spend it nua-ing at home which is like the last thing i wana do. i cant seem to stay at home nowadays. im like I NEED TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE MAN. so i went for the recruit express interview wif jingyi at taka tday:) met yunting there! shes like working there omg cool much! went shopping around for awhile to wait for nicktan, seriously i should stop going cotton on. ive been buying so many things from there. but on the bright side im super happy cause i bought a pair of 'loafers' that im gona wear for all my driving lessons + tests HAHA :) had lunch together then went to camwhore at ORCHARD CENTRAL. it seems like i keep discovering new places to camwhore at haha! jingyi had to leave and i went to meet nick.

we were going jobhunting together! was gona go for walk-in-interview @ gongcha ORCHARD CENTRAL haha but gaveup. so we went for the other interview @ united square. and so this is how i got my new job. we are gona be working at lot1 from 17jan selling GUAZI and other new year goodies haha super funny. ehh come visit me and buy from me! the pay is like super low. but like nick says, for the fun and exp, not for the money.

oh and i met denyse at wisma before that! hahas and found out that joan was in town too. so we went to meet her and her fren for movie. LOVE & other DRUGS. it wasnt like fantastic but passable i guess. got nude scenes cool man.

anyways im finally going for driving lesson tml! felt kinda guilty cause i was supposed to have gone for it already but i was always getting home super late and so wasnt able to book the slots. so yeap.

i shall end with a pretty picture of me and my mance!

it doesnt matter if its just this one moment or if there are 10000 more of this moment. what matters is that it happened.

raffles place EXIT A

i quit my job today. HAHA. anyways it wasnt like i din like the nature of the job, its more due to the working hours. TOO LITTLE. LOL. but i felt kinda bad for my manager cause he had to go retrain new pple since mizu and i left together lol. fancy having ur bf fetching you from work. walau like that lah haha. wells at least my babe 'fetched' me ytd. cheeee.

anyways i finally found the LEGEND... wait for it... DARY place ive always wanted to go to. You know how i chn8 dramas they always flim people going to this place with a newspaper and red pen and sit there to 'jobhunt'? yupp. raffles place EXIT A. i hav no idea what its called... like raffles place SQUARE maybe? I know right im damn suaku ive never been there before. Finally i went there today omg. I was like WAAAAAA. place ive always wanted to go to since primary sch! So of course i had to camwhore there!

im gona be a cam timer PRO soon haha. But i really love this picture of me and my mance! super nice!

we went to HOT TOMATO COFFEE HOUSE FOR LUNCH! yessss! i was soo excited!

mance at pasta and i had my CHICKEN AND MUSHROOM CREAM BAKED RICE that i was salivating over since monday. Okay not to my liking at all :( cheeee. The baked rice i like the most still is kj mum's! hahas. Going her house to have some on saturday! Finally i can eat my fav baked rice omg.

so since i quitted my job, im like freee NOW. suddenly thur and fri im free man. Quick someone jio me out! I dun wana stay at home :(

ohno im feeling hungry now. My dinner was a small bottle of orangejuice from rafflesplacemrt 7eleven and whitechipmacademianut subway cookie frm raffles place haha. Damn it. Its 11pm now. If i eat now, i'll be FAT :(

corporate wear

since im working in an office i had to wear corporate wear to work and it meant NO JEANS ALLOWED. booo. the only clothes i have are shorts and spag strap. and none of those are allowed -.- so i had to go shopping for corporate wear!

Ended work at 6pm today, just like yesterday and my babe came to fetch me from work! I think its damn nice to have ur loved ones fetch you from work and vice versa. Like a sweet feeling:) But that stupid babe was late so i had to meet her at bugis instead -.- I was so looking forward to eating the CHICKEN MUSHROOM BAKED RICE @ hot tomato coffee house below my working place :( Not everywhere sells chicken mushroom baked rice and trust me i have been looking out for it at every cafe. Its my fav so i was salivating at it ever since... yesterday? when i saw it. But i dun think i'll get the chance to eat it :(

omg im such a sucker for sales. I tend to splurge and impulse buy so many many things when they are on sale. Damn it. We both bought alot of items today! But i think most or all of em are sooo worth it. Sales rawk man.

Anyway it was the first OFFICIAL day at work today. Time passed so slowly while calling pple! We were given lists with people's names on to call. One page had 40 names. So i think i called like at least 200 people today. Lol but of course we slacked on our jobs. Called friends ;p Called fj, june, babe, nick and bryan. Haha my babe didnt recognize my voice at all. muahaha. And i started toking to bryan about land investment @ pulau ubin wth man. super hilarious.

meeting jeangang again tml! Gona watch little fockers even though i already watched it haha. But between driving lesson and the girls i chose the girls ;p Anyways it doesnt matter since the previous one was a free movie from rom haha. After that i have to go work at 630pm booo.

oh dear

i kinda wana quit my current job. I know i know ive only worked for 1 day LOL. but like i can tank hardwork and all but one thing i cant tank is the people there. So anyway i kinda went around looking for new jobs. And recruit express called me like again. Ah. What if they found me a job, should i really quit my current one? Sigh. Then it'll appear to the boss like i really cant do the job well. Urgh i hate that! But seriously when i look at it now, i think this job is really not what i should be doing. I mean i can handle the job, but i shldnt really be doing something of this pay and working hours. ZZZ. Im so dumb.

jean&bang GANG!

went harbourfront to meet up with the girls yesterday :) Biru and van were working at harbourfront centre so we all had to assemble there specially for em haha. Anyways we went earle swensen's at vivo for lunch. Omg i ate this super fantastic dessert! Maple banana wrap or something like that. It is soooo awesome!

while waiting for van and chua we went to the rooftop to camwhore!:) For once i wasnt the ultimate camwhore i was actually the photographer haha!
okay then went for banggang bbq but it was like raining so we had to hide out at june's while waiting for the rain to stop. Watched some super junior dvd concert thing that i wasnt really interested in so went to play BANG with the guys. WON THE FIRST ROUND BABEH. and died the last for the second round. so yea man. finally the rain kinda stopped and we were able to head down for the BBQ!

it took 4guys and 1 girl to sucessfully start up the fire. Hahas i decided i was gona slack for the day cause like i was cooking up a storm at the previous bbq. But nope, endup i cooked and had panda eyes again. But it was so worth it cause the SATAYS WERE SOO FREAKING AWESOME OMG. i ate like ALOT. cause i cooked em. and i put the cooked ones beside me so i was kinda like cooking and eating at the same time ;p

stan bought this 46% coffee alcohol thing and i brought my vodka. I only like drank a sip of the 46% cause i really hate coffee ;p but vodka was awesome as usual :D

i ate sooo freaking much at the bbq! ALOT OF SATAY + 11 chickenwings + 3hotdogs. Omg. Im so fat i think i can die. Okay shall end with a picture of us :)

im sorry my face stinks

i have tanked through hundreds of hours of CIP, serving the community, enduring the sun, rejections and putting on sweet smiles. I hav even tanked warehouse work. Wth. And you are saying i cant handle a telemarketing job? Who the hell are you to say that to me.

IM SORRY MY FACE STINKS. But i dun see the need to smile to you. You just happened to see me at a wrong time and u concluded that the job is gona be a problem to me? WTH. I dun really wana put on fake smiles and be those kind of bitches who smile to you and then proceed to backstab you. But if that is what you wan, i'll do it.

Seriously, i prefer the warehouse job more. I rather tank foreign workers and uncles than fake smiles and office politics.

one thought

i wokeup today and i had a sudden revelation. That it wasnt gona work man. The differences are just too great. OHWELL.

screwdriver

im sooo tired omg! just came back from bbq at june's. i ate so so much i think i should go on a diet for like 2-3days. seriously the satays were damn good. even better cause we cooked em ourselves! im now drinking SCREWDRIVER haha. lol i poured the leftover vodka into a can of coke and is drinking away. Looking forward to a night of good sleep and sweet dreams :)

on a side note. I think people do change alot when they are in love. Its just so weird. They end up doing things they would never have done before. And many of these things are like super mushyyy and cheesy omg. I will never ever do that man. Like EWWW. When i observe those around me who are in love im like OMG i wun ever be like that man. so -.-

edited

IN 2011 IM GONA BE OPTIMISTIC :)

In 2011 I...

-will be a better friend to my friends and daughter to my parents and sister/bro to my brother and all other siblings and dude to my babe and stranger to all strangers HAHA

-will learn to build up my self confidence

-will become fearless

-will become a more mature, independent and stronger girl

-will begin to attend the university of my dreams

-will get my driving license

-will get awesome jobs

-hope that i can finally be able to smile with my teeth

-hope that things will improve between us

-hope that i build many many many new friendships

-hope that i will not drift apart from all the important people in my life

-hope to become smarter and prettier and TALLER LOL

-WANT IT TO BE AN AWESOME YEAR :D

i know right

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! hahas i cant believe its 2011 already! Like wth? 2010 passed so quickly! It felt so weird to say that its 1st jan today. So anyways, new year eve was spent at michh's! Counting down with lovely michh, joan and jean :) It was like an awesome sleepover! Night filled with erm movies monopoly mono deal pizza dogs MTV chocolate cake royce choc! (thanks joan ily soo much!) 2PM and more mono deal HAHA

we finally slept at like 7am? Slept tgt like sardines which was something i haven really do before! Jean like dominated the pillow we shared so i was pillowless the whole night. That selfish girl!:(

Wow and it was like the first sleepover that i didnt drink. Cool man. Though its abit funny not to drink when its new year and stuff. But nvms, drinking tomorrow with my babe!

ahh didnt take a picture with michh but nvm i can take with her tml! Yeap meeting the girls (all 7 of them FINALLY) tml afternn! Im so excited cause its been so long since we could ALL meetup. Then after that i gota rush to BBQ wif banggang! Srsly i might pursue the career of an event organiser! I managed to plan everything at the sleepover and blahblah through the night and finally settled everything this afternoon after i got home from the sleepover which was like 4-5pm? Like super last minute i know but i still did it! yea man.

Just hope that everything will turn out fine for the BBQ tml! :)