people in 2010

i was gona do this with the previous jc life post, but then i realised it will be epic-ly long so yea, im doing a separate one now. I was reading this kiddy book and the character mentioned that by keeping diaries, we will be able to take the things out from our cupboard. So i tink by writing posts like that (posts that are 99% truthful), i can put a stop to the buzzzing in my brain and also not keep everything bottled up inside me which is really tiring. Im the kind of person who always talks about things. Like i try not to keep stuff buried inside if not my brain will chaoda i tink. So i guess my frens all suffer because i tend to tell them all sorts of retarded things that happen in my life. Anyways, since im gona be toking about alot of people in this post, and saying how i really feel about them (99% truthful), i might end up offending some people or give some people the wrong idea so yea. disclaimer. I hope whatever i say here does not jeopardize any frenships! :)

im basically gona be talking about the people in my life (mostly in 2010) and how i really feel about them.

FAMILY

my parents

i love my parents. But i have never ever said that i love them to them before. Which is what i really need to improve on. And ive never shown that i do love them. sigh. my character is so flawed. The ones i always argue with and get ahnnoyed with are my parents. I seldom or dun ever get pissed off at my frens. Even if i do, i just kinda keep it in. But with my parents, its a different story, i argue with them all the time. I feel so bad, feel like im such a bad child. But i just cant stop myself from flaring up. Its true that u always end up hurting the people you love the most. The closer you are to sumone, the easier conflicts happen between you guys. Sigh. I just wished i was a better daughter. Dun tink ive ever displayed any act of filial piety before, or shown that i cherish them.

I dunoe since when, but one day i decided i had to do something about it. And so i started saying gdnight to em EVERY NIGHT. without fail. even during slpovers, i'll call em and say gdnight. It may seem insignificant, but its already a big step for me in showing that i really do care about them.

I love my mummy. She is a ultra super duper worrywart. Thats why shes so strict towards me. Not letting me go out past like 11pm? (actually i dun really care i jus stay out however late i wan and jus tank the scoldings later) I quarrel with her the most. But i love her the most too.

I love my daddy. My daddy is the epitome of a man of few words. He hardly speaks.My frens hu have seen him always ask me why my daddy nvr tok one. Hmms. But i really like the rare moments when i say/do something retarded and my daddy smiles and laugh. I used to think that my daddy was only dere to bring in income for the family. Now nopes. i love my daddy.

my brother

i call my brother all sorts of names. usually i just call him FATTY. i like to randomly go into my bro's room and say FATTY WAD U DOING? hahas. My brother used to always bully me when we were young. And i hated my brother actually when i was younger. But im older now and it has changed. Another thing is that i believe i was always living in my brother's shadow. Hes the smartest in the family (both dad and mum side) and i tink i was always jealous of him. He always always did better than me in everything. he got 269 and i got 258 for PSLE. he got 9pts and i got 8pts for O's. He still did better because there werent Ip during his time. Hes in SMU now. My dream school. I dun tink i can even get into a uni. so yea. jealousy. But i tink i love my brother too. He was the one who introduced me to neopets, maple, cs, l4d and all sorts of other things. A big brother who despite being only in primary sch, said he will bash up the guy who bullied me. My nice big brother :)

liu funjuin aka meimei

i love my meimei. we've known each other for 10yrs now. And she is like family to me. She wasnt the type of bff i wanted. I always wanted a bff who will text each other everyday and do girly girly stuff together. But we arent like that. We dun tok or text each other everyday, and most of the time she always responds nonchalantly. And we are anything but girly girly. And i hate her mood swings. Even after so many years of tanking them, i still am fearful of them and sometimes at a loss of what to do when she gets into her moods. Ive probably never gotten into a fight with her before. I just try to tank all i can. But despite sometimes grumbling about her moods, she is still the first person i turn to when i have problems. Even though i may be afraid she will just appear bochup. But i still always talk to her first. I noe she can appear bochup but she still cares for me:) And i love her alot because she noes almost everything about me. And she listens to me talk (even if she doesnt want to i still go on anyway) and tells me what i should or should not do, all for my own good.

Ive let her down before, this i regret ALOT. And im not gona do it again. i swear. And i noe this is one friendship that will last a lifetime. Also, she is probably the only friend ive cried over about. i love you liu fun juin!

phang kee jia aka jiejie

i love my immature and still very childish jiejie:) she has also spent 10yrs in my life. Ive neglected her over this 2 years and im very sad that we arent as close as before. She used to noe everything there is to noe about my life, but now she doesnt. And i haven seen her in ages too. I love her because when we are together, we always do silly things that are so retarded i cant believe we are actually doing it. And then we will piss fj off because she canot tank our retardedness hahas. I will work hard to be back in her life again because i noe that we will be each others' sister for a lifetime too.

foo jiun yang aka bromance bro aka june aka gumball

you once jokingly asked me 'oi how come u werent nervous when u first tok to me ah?' i finally found the answer to that. it is perhaps because ive never seen you as a guy before HAHA. its cool because i see u as a girl and u see me as a guy deres why there exist bromance between us. If we werent like that, we wldnt had been so good frens. I like to talk cock with you. Its cool because we can talk about all sorts of things under the sun and i do mean ALL SORTS. and i like ur retarded humor. Im abit apprehensive and scared about using this word, but yes i do love you bro:) hahas. you are like the closest closest guy fren ive ever had. Where were you all my life? Most of the time i see you as a sister actually, thats why i like consulting you and listening to ur advices. Seldom do you act like a man. But for your own sake, and somebody else's too, i tink you should start manning up. Please! Enough of ur pink shoelaces and what not.

Oh and, its finally time that i can clear this up. Ive been a smokescreen for way too long. I love june as a bro and he treats me as a bro. Nothing more than that. There is absolutely nothing going on between us other than bromance. So all teasing should cease.

Anyways, one of the things i miss most about my jc life is probably sitting together with you :( Those were like the happiest moments of my life when we tok cock while sitting together or go toilet before base class together. So yea, thanks bro for tanking my everything, and especially tanking all the slaps and punches i gave you.

christine hoo aka my babe

i tink its compulsory for me to say that i love my babe haha. i tink my babe is really pretty. If u haven realised, go check out her prom pictures! Anyways, even though im acting like a les and all that, but i tink i really might be BI hahas. okays or maybe not. So yea, im so happy for my babe when i see her all pretty and stuff. like really happy. Im not even that happy for myself if i look pretty. Anyways maybe its cause it shows that i got gd taste in women. (omg this sounds so wrong) I like my babe because she is really a nice person. One who dunoe how to ignore and dao when she needs to. All along ive been rather mean to my babe, teasing her about being fat and stuff. But thats the way i work, i only tease those that im really close to and comfortable with. But i really hope my babe hurries and becomes really slim. When that day comes i tink alot of guys will fall in love with her. Then it will be time she kicks me aside. But i dun mind because i wan her to be happy ;D I like my babe because i can be all touchy with my babe. ( crap sounds wrong again!) I dun tink me and fj have been touchy at all even though we are bestest of frens. hahas. I suddenly like to be touchy touchy with people. Omg SKINSHIP! ;D Anyways i love my babe alot :)

pan meng aka pm aka peter

I love pan meng because she is really really smart and because we've been together since the start of sa3 :) She has always stuck by me through everything. Like all my retardness, craziness, tantrums (?) and wadsoeva. She is like really innocent. Theres alot of things that she dunoe. But on the other hand she is really really smart. I always end up copying her tutorials -.- which is a really really bad thing. Anyways, i like the fact that she is sooo innocent and i cant help but tease her about it. Also, when me and june wana talk about sick stuff, we always try to make sure we do not tok abt em infront of panmeng and jingyi for fear of corrupting them. We have never gotten into a fight b4. or rather. Panmeng does not have a temper at all. Which is really weird haha. I think she is a CAI NV. A super talented girl who does well at everything possible. Thats why i admire her like alot. I probably was jealous of how pro she is, but at the same time i do look up to her alot :)

jingyi aka mance

i love jingyi because i think that ive changed alot this year because of her. I used to be (might still is) a really lazy girl, that kind who wun go the extra mile for her friends cause i feel that everything is just so mafan and all. Then, jingyi came into my life. She is the nicest person ive ever met. The kind thats like really really rare. Idk how to describe it, but after knowing her. I tink ive kinda changed. For the better. I started wanting to be a nicer person, not such a bitch anymore. Like nowadays, i'll actually render my services (?) to the people around me and not find it such a chore. I'll also do sweet things. Ive never said this to jingyi before hahas. So she probably doesnt know what an influence she had been to me. Anyways, you noe how they always ask , who influenced you the most? I can say that for the year 2010, jingyi has influenced me the most and in a really really good way too. Im still a bitch, but now im a much nicer bitch than before. Thats why i really really wana thank my mance! But on the other hand, jingyi! I feel that you dun always always have to be so nice! If ur forever so nice, be careful cause you might get made use of :) If that were to happen (choi), i'll come out and bash that bastard.

ian gor

he is like the gor i never had! ;D hahas. I like him alot because he is like super gentleman and all! But he needs to have more elf confidence! Like the way he walks and stuff. If he does, then he'll make one heck of an awesome guy. haha ;D i really hope you find your right girl soon!

friends ;D

vanessa jean minyi biru kelleynee joan michelle

that isnt really much to write about you guys though haha. I JUST PLAIN LOVE YOU GUYS ;D

bryan nicholas sum

Bryan used to be like a rather nonchalant character! So i decided to break through his barrier and started waving to him like a retard whenever i can hahas. Finally after so long, he starts reciprocating and waving and hi5ing me back ;D i was really happy! And i tink that bryan has like a calm and serene aura hahas. Like if ur feeling down or confused or smth, just go stand beside bryan and ur emotions becomes peaceful immediately!

There are two people in sa3 that sumhow i feel that i wana be gd frens with/ One of em is bryan! Hahas. So im super happy that now we are kinda gd frens already! Bryan! Lets remain gd frens okay? ;D

shao yetong

Yup, the other person in sa3 that i wana be gd frens with is shao! Hes like a really different kind of person. As in, we are totally on different wavelengths! (our intellect) He can come up really complicated and chim stuff that i will not ever dream of. I especially like reading shao's essays! Most of the time they are really original and unique ;D and he always asks me really chim qns that i nid to tink for a super long time b4 i can answer them hahas. Anyways! Lets stay l2 frens okay? ;D

clive

i tink ive always been rather bad to clive! forever rolling my eyes at him or suaning him. But in actual fact i really do like you clive! hahas. im too shy to express my feelings so i end up bullying you ;P

nicktan

is the ultimate NICE GUY. He always asks us (girls) to sms him when we reach home if class outing ends late. He always makes fun of me! which is really annoying but i noe he is a really gd person ;D hahas. Whoever is nick's gf in the future will be damn fortunate! ;D

jonathan yap aka JO!

i like the way JO calls me huihuistar hahaha. i start laughing whenever i hear him say it. JO can be annoying at times. But he is actually a rather nice person :) I owe it all to JO that im chummier with the guys! Its all because of all the slpovers and stuff that he organises :)

okto

i like okto because he is like sooo super cute ;D chubby chubby! Hehes. Like ive always felt very comfortable around okto idunoewhy! and even now even tho hes back in indo, we are still toking on msn! Happy ;D

bella

i think he is the only friend that i argued and quarreled and shown my worst side to. Like i remembered there was this one time i was just so frustrated that every sentence i said had at least a 'fuck' in it. Only when infront of him do i use the f word openly, if not i hardly ever use it anymore. Its quite sad cause we used to be like so gd frens. Me telling him everything that was happening in my life and him listening and giving advices. Its really hard to find a gd fren who will listen to all your rants! But i wasnt appreciative of him so yea. We had this huge fight and stuff. Sigh. But im glad things are better and we are back being frens even thought we arent as close anymore. He is one person that i really wish happiness for. Like i hope he stops his emoness and really start his happy life.

Shaun Tho

i need to apologise to him! I was rather bad to him :( I wldnt deny that. Like kept daoing him and stuff. Wells, im just retarded that way. (you can call it retarded, but if you wana call it bitchy i wldnt mind) Its like i dunoe how to reply to people when they say things like 'fuck physics' or 'im so screwed' like wad? I also feel the same way wad -.- And if the msgs are like those kind that dun require any replies, i normally cant be bothered to reply em lah. But yea, i know i was really really horrible to him. I just hope he will accept my apology and then we can start bridging together again. I mean, im willing to continue bridging if he still wants me as a partner ;) So yea. Cant wait for him to get back to sg!

Rom tham

i think it will be damn awesome if he is my older bro HAHA. But its okay if he remains as my coach/ love consultant. I think i have to thank god that rom came into my life. I mean, an older guy with so much exp? Wow. I can really use his help haha. I think ive learnt alot talking to him and consulting him. And im really grateful (?) he is willing to tell me his stories. But i think that he really should amend his flirtatious ways! ;P And i sincerely hope that she is the right one for him :)

I think i mostly posted people in my life who i really have things i need to say to em about. If you are not mentioned here, it doesnt mean that you are not part of my life, or i dun like you! You know i do like you ;D

Hmms, ive never been so truthful in my feelings towards others before so i dunoe what will happen when i finally publish this post, but yea, i wanted to be honest so this is wad im doing.

okays i think i took like 1 week or so to compose this post HAHA. :)