the last day of 2010 i made someone laugh

Today i never smiled. It was so hard to not smile you know? Im the kind of person who can laugh over really silly and unfunny things. But for once in my life i was a neutral expression kind of person today. I just felt so devoid of emotions or rather happiness. I had this thought the whole day in my head. That i rather see my friends smile and laugh than me. Like, i want to give up all the reasons in the world that can possibly make me smile/laugh to my friends so that they can smile/laugh instead. Okay this probably sounds stupid.

after one day of reflection, i have decided to be the sensible and mature girl and put the past behind me. I cant keep harping on those issues i have (even though i had been doing so for like 1 whole day), i mean look huiyi! There are greater problems out there in the world, eg starvation, wars what not. So many people in the world are facing so much greater shit than you are, so just suck it up, be a man, let em go and stop emoing and depressing.

Okay time to grow up little girl! After one day of needing to be left alone. IM BACK ;D

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went for DRIVING LESSON2 today! I think im getting addicted ;p met bryan at BBDC! he was there for lesson + prac. LOl

then to fj's place for KFC lunch + despicable me. Yea im binge-ing again cause i was still rather down at that point in time. Then, drank pepsi GIn. okay larh not bad. Oh i realise that i likeeeee my face after i drink! It just screams I GOT PUT BLUSHER!

after dinner daddy wanted to 'teach' me how to drive -.- Anyways i shall conclude that night driving is AWESOME! but my daddy said i was scary :( heh wonder what i did

Anyways im so excited for clubbing+sleepover @ bryan's! Im gona ONE NIGHT STAND man! Gona stand for one night at the club ;P lol i said that to bryan and he actually LAUGHED poot! Okay thats how my title came about haha super random i know.

2011 in slightly less than 24hours time. Maybe a miracle will happen when 2011 comes. Like... i'll actually become a better person. And for all those stupid issues i have to like POOF and disappear! Rawk on while you can 2010! You are gona be replaced soon.