i was so bored i tried making friend with a cockroach

today was spent in a useless way. I was supposed to start bridging again today. But then, i din have time to do so in the end. so here i am, continuing with my super long blog post and msning people. Anyways thomas CHAODA just said that self confidence is the key to everything. Shit mans. i dun hav self confidence to begin with. what am i gona do? So CHAODA says that i should start psyching myself up.

HUIHUISTAR IS VERY SMART

HUIHUISTAR IS VERY PRETTY

sorry CHAODA, but im not as bu yao lian as you!

anyways, im feeling kinda nervous and scared now! I noe theres no reason to be (even though toto says its perfectly fine) since the plan isnt until tml. But im really scared!!! Aish, i probably shouldnt be tinking too much about it now. For all i noe, he might just dao me and then that marks the end of everything. I will just erm go drink and drown my sorrows? LOL or just eat ALOT. omg. I tink the main reason why i cant stick to my diet plan is dat i eat when im sad and i eat when im happy -.-and thats like all the time. i can be sad now and 1 sec later i can be happy again. shit. I can see my tummy sticking out again. Damn it. Im like back to 46kg? That KFC night i actually ate 3PCS chicken and 2 LARGE coleslaw ALL BY MYSELF. i tink im so scary sometimes. i can eat alot. i probably have a expandable stomach.

On a side note, i tink i have schizo!

Common negative symptoms include flat or blunted affect and emotion, poverty of speech (alogia), inability to experience pleasure (anhedonia), lack of desire to form relationships (asociality), and lack of motivation (avolition).

Wow! 3/5 symptoms! Not bad at all.

Im scared of tomorrow. But i'll be able to see my mance tml! Finally. I haven seen her since prom night! ;D